Friday, the 22nd of August
My first ever business event since starting my online business!
Right now, I'm on the train to Schiphol to get on a flight to my first business event in Latvia. Honestly, I'm a bit scared because I've only been in this business for 6 months, and I'm already going to meet people who have years of experience, powerful skills, and knowledge in entrepreneurship, being a business owner, personal development, building strength, and creating an authentic brand, etc.
I feel like a small spot in the huge mass. However, I'm also very excited, because I know I'll learn so much from those people, building connections, and speaking to new or familiar faces I have until now only seen on screen.
Whenever I step out of my comfort zone, like with something I'm scared to do, I connect that type of anxiety to a situation from my past, a thing that's not necessarily something to be scared about anymore. Quite often, I'm anxious about something I don't even know the outcome of, and from what I don't even have a clue about, knowledge and experience, if it's really going to happen. I'll only get that experience by doing, by facing that fear, and literally stepping into that situation.
It's the same feeling I get when I step solo on the plane. There's always a thought of: 'Can I do this?', 'What if something is going wrong?', 'What if I'm stuck there or can't come back?' Until now, nothing like these things has happened. I know I have my voice with me to speak, to ask for help, and I know I'm not even a second scared to step up to someone when I'm in the middle of a situation in which I struggle. But, on the forehand... O, my... I can be so anxious...
And I didn't yet talk about the moment when I'm just on the plane, the doors are closing, and they tell us through the speakers that we're ready for take-off. My mind goes like: 'Sh*t! Now I can't go back anymore!'
However, I'm glad that I do this, that I go solo, that I have the guts to challenge myself, that I step into that fear, and in the end know that nothing of all is going to happen in reality.
So, I'm proud of where I'm standing now, what I'm capable of doing & doing it. Anyway.
Sunday, the 24th of August
Wow, what a spirit to be in a room full of people with the same energy, the same mission, the same feeling of empowerment, and sharing value. I was full of tears, a massive feeling of gratitude that I could be part of this, of this bunch of amazing people, sparkling souls, men, and women all together.
I feel like I'm now finally part of something bigger, part of the group, having not only some connections, but building wonderful relationships for life.
And the people who inspire you are just there, like normal humans. I needed to encourage myself, step up to talk to Nate and Hannah, whom I admire in what they do, but it's the screen, the pictures, the rank... However, they're also just humans, like me, and like someone else.
That's exactly the proof I needed to truly believe that one day I'll be on stage too, that I'm going to make it, and also be in the higher ranks. Not because of the money, but because I'm an inspiration for others.
Monday, the 25th of August
The event came to an end yesterday, and I learned so much to implement, to try, to do, and I have the motivation to let that spark inside grow even more. I felt great energy, so many tears, but also still a little bit of doubt somewhere deep. Because there were a couple of speakers, a couple of people were building fast momentum. Raising that spark in others, which also brought me the question: 'Why me?' What exactly would be so special about me that I'll walk on that stage one day? So many people were over there, feeling the same energy, creating belief, and fire within themselves, but what could it be that's making me stand out, create, and help others with our products?
My story, I know, and already started to be open to the core. Is that enough? Should I just keep going with that and being patient, while trying, and tweaking things out on other parts within my business to see what's working to build momentum?
I guess I answered my own doubt and question right there and dived deeper into things like ads, direction for targeting, automation, and contacts.
Overall, I feel overwhelmed by emotions, and the most beautiful part of all of this is that the people who are already longer in this business are just like me, humans who started somewhere, with a vision, a mission, to create impact, change & transform their lives as well as that of others and our planet.
I'm curious to see what's in store for me, but I also know there are many skeptical people out there. People who think they don't affect us by spreading all of their negative judgments, just because there's a screen in between. Even when I know I can't make all of them see what I see, and that I'm here to teach and guide others, the criticism sometimes hits deep, especially when you're honest, open, and transparent yourself.
However, I'm aware of that, I'm aware of the doubt that sometimes creeps in. Now I know, so I can work on that. My belief in our community grew after the event. I talked to a lot of people and finally, after all those lonely years in my life, I feel like I belong to something. Something massive, impactful, worldwide & legendary.
It's my business, my vision, but our mission together and growing in this along with each other will in the end make that impact.
Those two days were an amazing step for me in my confidence and independence, while I have evidence and proof that I may trust people again.
On my way home, I'm feeling blessed, grateful, and really tired, but fulfilled with love.
Knowledge is power, community is strength, and a positive attitude is everything
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Je hebt het steeds over je business en impact maken maar je noemt nooit wat voor business én wat voor impact? Je verdient er ook nog niks mee. Wat is het product of de dienst die je verkoopt? Hoe verbetert het de wereld? En op wat voor manieren? Klimaat, sociale rechtvaardigheid, betere gezondheid? Je praat nooit over wat het nou inhoudt die ‘business’? En of het je eigen product is, of ingekocht. Het gaat alleen over dat je allerlei mensen spreekt die hetzelfde willen: een eigen business en geen 9-5 baan. En dat dan aan elkaar doorvertellen en elkaar ‘inspireren’. Het lijkt alsof iemand jullie als business model heeft. De titel “waves of impact”, super abstract ook en bedoeld om je een bepaald gevoel te geven, alsof het iets heel groots en tegelijkertijd unieks is. Natuurlijk leuk als het connecties oplevert en je erg ook iets van leert, maar dat lijkt dan ook de enige opbrengst en wellicht ook wel het enige doel (meer mensen overtuigen en zo de pyramide versterken).